My hunger has been satisfied. What maybe I've been looking during my whole life is mine, at last. She will starve me and the feed me. I'll do the same for her. Zakhata has linked our souls through his red priest Regno. I never truly believed our marriage could ever be celebrated. I hoped it, with all my will, she hoped it too. You can't never be sure until you finally have what you desire. And only a few days ago I believed we could not fulfill our dream.
I had just come back from Village Barovia to Vallaki, looking for Threice. A woman, who named herself Danielle, told me that her "toy-boy" had attempted to kill her with a knife. Only with the help of the elf I also knew she managed to be safe. I was not so sure of the words of the woman, but I had seen Rainn behaving in a strange way when we met him in Barovia. I was a bit worried about Threice, but I thought also that Rainn was more willing to harm himself rather then her, just getting drunk and making silly things. The first thing I did was to speak with him. I did not tell him the name of my informer, but I let him know that I knew. He did not confirm, nor negate what had happened.
I perfectly know I stole her from him. It was nothing planned. It just happened. I love and need her, it's normal for me to try to stay as long as I can with her. I told him if there were someone to blame that was me. I told him also that he could kill me, but I would have not brought the burden of seeing her harmed in any way. He sighed and did not reply. His friend Markrael joined us. He told me strange things. We were not able to end our conversation at the Lady's because we were attacked by a group of savage calibans. For the second time I was killed inside that inn. Yet one of my reports, while I was still a guard, asked clearly to have more patrols in there because it had become quite dangerous and not at all a safe place during nights. At the end Rainn saved me again. Don't ask me why, I could not reply. He could have let my corpse to the calibans to devour it, he could have beheaded it, or burnt it. But he saved me. Once again.
While I was recovering myself in the temple I saw Threice. She saw me as well but treated me with such a coldness I could not bear. I saw Rainn attempting to excuse himself with her, saying it would have happened no more. I was weak and confused. I did not understand Threice's reaction. What concerned me most was the fact she even did not greet me. She went out. I tried to follow her, slowly, weakly, dazzled. I lost her. I went from the Lady's to the temple constantly, luckily the Barovian spring making me feel less cold. But I felt Threice's cold at me. I was wrong. I found eventually her and she took me under the crypts. The path was clear. She told me that there we could talk with no one disturbing us. I shrugged. She added that down there people would have had to fight to reach them, so it was harder for anyone to find them. I smiled slightly. She had had a smart thought.
We talked for a long while. She told me about Rainn and that she had left him. She told that once she had decided to live forever with me he could not have room in her life. My most inner self rejoyced. I did not want to harm Rainn. But I secretly yearned her only for me. She added also she murdered two men who were bullying her. I reproached her a bit, but my inner self rejoyced again. She risked to be burnt like an evil witch if discovered in killing people. Nevertheless she had demonstrated, mostly to herself, she is not as weak as she thinks. I was happy that she could defend herself by her own. After the talk we made the most dangerous thing we could do down there. And that was a new place where we shared our love.
We went for a drink and then for a walk. I needed a new weapon because the calibans had stolen my from my corpse. Better my weapon than having my body devoured, though. I told her to come back to Barovia. There we were quite quiet, excluding the episode of the Artist and that of Gundkarites looking for me. But we had to wait the day. I proposed her to pass the night at the Broken Bell. The name seemed to sound new to her. I frowned. Once there she rememebered. It was the very place in which we shared our love, just after a definite reassuring of my feelings. I explained her that I really undertood I loved her only once I was no more at her service. In my life I have learnt you should never have affairs with people you work with or for. My feelings for her had been, let's say, asleep and awoke only when I went for another work. Smiling she told me that maybe I spent more time with her as a Vallaki guard rather than her bodyguard. I smiled. That was probably true. I also had the time to reproach her and advise her not to accept a strange proposal made by an unknown man who promised her money. I reminded her how it ended with the Artist and she should never believe to too kind people.
We spoke again about our marriage. I had met the strange red priest who talked to her in the inn of the Midway. He told me they were coming for me, to have my initiation celebrated. I nodded. As a matter of fact I saw from a window of our room an unmistakable figure passing by, red dressed and with a smoking incense dispenser. It was Regno for sure. It was chance. The same chance who brought me to Threice's service the first time. As I told her, probably people who sent me to her considered me a whore, and of course considered her that as well: they sent me to her only to joke me. I told Threice to dress herself, we would have run to look for Regno. We looked for him at the market and at the end to the shop of Murnu. There he was. Laughing and preaching as usual. We greeted him.
I told him we want to marry. He seemed not to understand at first, because he asked whom I wanted to marry. Actually our request was to "marry us", and he believed we both wanted to marry him. We told him we wanted the blessing of his god, who was our god as well. He rejoyced and laughed and asked us to follow him. He took us in a grove in the woods. He asked us if we had the dressings. The hurry to finally link our souls made us forget many details. Regno was quite perfect in providing them all. Threice had her weedding dress, purple and white, smart and perfectly fit for her. I took from my bag a royal kimono, because I thought it was enough extravagant and nice for that ceremony. My dress was red and white. Purple and red. Threice always says to me I'm great in red. She promised me a slutty red cloth. I'm looking forward to wear it only for her. Purple and red, or colours. White, the colour of our marriage. Regno told us we should have met some hours later because he had to arrange the ceremony. We nodded and waited. Many hours passed. The waiting seemed eternity. We had fancied a lot about that moment and we simply could not wait for any second more. But we should wait.
We talked and hugged to protect ourselves from the chilling Barovian spring. Our thoughts were elsewhere. Our souls were yearning to link. Our hearts had already become one. Regno came back. He told us to follow him. We were joined by the other red dressed man. His name I suppose is Ry, because so I heard Regno call him. It was a long way. We had to reach Zakhata's temple. The trip was all but eventless. I had to fight some wolves and gremishka in my wedding dress. Threice told me I was cute fighting with my greatsword dressed that way. I smiled at her. All along the way Regno never stop to sing chantes for Zakhata. Sooner or later I must learn them, considering I'm a singer. Ry was quite silent, though. Threice and me spoke only a little, we just walked, hand in hand, sometimes looking to each other and smiling.
We arrived at the temple. Regno told us to stand in a strange picture traced on the ground. Five points as a star and some things left on the top of each point. I then realized they were offers to Zakhata. I was tired and worried and emotional. A couple of times I failed my time at answering at Regno's ritual. Threice was beside me and we shivered together, because of emotions, because of fear. A huge devilish statue seemed to be watching us for all the time. And sometimes it seemed to speak to us. We proclaimed our promise to each other, in the name of Zakhata. Regno inserted the weeding rings in our fingers making us bleed. Eventually he told us to drip our blood on the ground and share it. That was the final act. More or less. Regno told us strange words about the heal and the pain, the hunger and the feeding. Then he told us we had to share our first night as married girls down there. We had to remove our wedding dresses. The statue kept watching us all the time. I admit it was quite embarassing.
At the end we dressed again and Regno and Ry prepared for us a feast. I did not feel hungry and it was rather strange because I had not been eating for a long while. But I ate to fulfill the ceremony. Threice was quite silent. I could fully understand her. The ceremony in itself was more frightening than romantic. But through it we were linked for ever. We wanted to go to the inn on the Midway. Regno told us that chambers had been prepared for us. Our chamber would have been that grotto we were in. We smiled at each other quite uneasily. We slept there, though.
Now I am hers and she is mine. We are joined eternally with the blessing of a powerful god we both trust. We are linked with our rings, with our blood. I felt a pierce on my soul and I firmly believe that now our souls are joined too. We are one now. We will starve and feed each other, we will inflict pain and carefully heal each other. Until death will take us apart. No. I believe that we will be linked even in the afterlife. We will live and die for each other. For ever after.