Hello Nelly,
Hello.
Don't talk this time... just listen...
Alright....
I've given a lot of thought about the nature of trust...
Seriously? This again?!
Just. Listen.
Fine.
It's the foundation of all meaningful relationships. Whether it's your relationship with religion, government, organization, friends or family, it forms the structure for all civilized thinking conscious and unconscious. Some value it too little and trust too openly, others value it too highly and trust no one. Then there are a few like us... whose confidence in themselves is so shaken they can't trust...
Breaking Trust is such an easy wound to inflict.... and the injured usual forget to get treated... like myself, they try to tough it out... But it was an open wound and became infected... For me the pain started to manifest itself in the loneliness it created... And all I wanted to do is further isolate myself and be alone.
For a time, the solitude did me some good. It helped me sort myself out, I had to try and rebuild my foundation. But I still don't want to trust myself, you won't let me. Even if I rebuild my foundation it doesn't make a home, alone the start of one.
We have to go back to others in order to rebuild.
No.
I know your scared, but I can't do this fractured... We need to rebuild and there are others that wish the same for us.
Sincerely,
-Nelly
...
It's okay... you still need time...