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4th moon - Waning gibbous - 777
Some drunken ass bumped into me while I was doing my last entry. Spilled my drink. I nearly gutted him. Weeks, months gone. And memories of my journey gone with it.
So I star anew.
I cannot remember the last time I was myself. I've been so scared. It's stupid. I can cleave a man in two, carry more than a brute thrice my size, and shrug off most blades Something about being alone still terrifies me.
There were five of them.
One took me in. They showed me kindness and gave me a few things I needed to survive. It was a manipulation. But then I was betraying them all the while.
One spared my life. I don't know why, but they also opened my eyes and showed me the world as it really is.
One gave me love. Conditional as it was, it was love. It was love I did not deserve. Love I do not deserve.
One gave me strength. The strength to endure almost anything. She teaches me, but to what end? I trust her as much as I would trust myself.
Only one gives me purpose. Only one makes me feel at home, even when I am not. It is as if a piece of my mother has found her way there. It is a shame that I'll only ever disappoint.
Five of them. One is gone, dead or destroyed, however you want to look at. Sacrificed to lift back the veil. One is mad, sick with power. Hunting anyone that cannot be controlled. One will carry me to my grave. One will join me there. Both of them deserving better than I can give. And one will outlive us all. Whatever they are planning, I'll never truly know. Perhaps some day though, I'll be able to look down and enjoy the chaos they cause.