« Reply #7 on: December 05, 2021, 02:22:15 PM »
His name was Eosin-Deupin.
Our love affair would take place along Rue de Pierot between the hours of eleven in the evening to four in the morning. It would all begin on a heavy, humid night in November, the streets slicked with rain like grease through a debonair's hair. Every evening he would take his place under a crooked lamp post, surrounded by his pack of jackal-men. They were armed with the means of mischief; cigarettes and half-drunk bottles, lamp-lighter torches and midnight oil, and bright red sashes collaring their waists.
We'd lived in each others lives for so long, but we hadn't realized it. Every evening I'd pass him by, him on his crooked post, and me to my bar. Our lives wouldn't collide like some explosion of romance, either. No, it would all begin with:
"How about a kiss?"
The next evening I saw him, he broke from his pack of chuckling hyenas, and came to heel at my side. Away from his stage, the hunter of his jackal's countenance melted away, leaving a soft eyed puppy in paws too big. He asked for a light, I asked for a cigarette, (you should always deal in exchanges) and we stood in the dark away from the lamps, our faces lit by our vices. He smelled like old wood and tobacco, and his hands were big and square from a long career in violence.
I humored him. We'd talk together until the end of the street, talking about good bars and better towns than this one. He wasn't very politically driven for a Sash. Violence, he told me, was just the language he was fluent in. Being so big, so tall, so sour faced, the Sashes had assumed him one of their own and dressed him up in the pamphlets and the regalia. He didn't mind, he told me. It was good to feel like he was doing something more meaningful than shaking debtors down for their dues. Sometimes I'd forget my destination, and we'd talk for hours. About the Revolution, the Council, the foremen, the bankers, the frills, if any of it mattered. When it'd be time to part, he'd ask me again, "How about a kiss?"
Our conversations would become peppered with playful exchanges of distractions. He'd bring me flowers, and we'd take turns plucking petals, daring each other on each petal until we fell on the last one. Kiss me, court me, kiss me, court me, kiss me, court me. On a court me day, he took my hand and led me within, the dive bar of Rue de Pierot. The tavern was old and crumbling under the weight of autumn's rains and neglected building inspectors. It looked like any other corpse on this street, except for the chorus of laughter, scuffles, and rowdy conversation held over cheap drink.
It was like being inside a whale's carcass, hot and humid, ripe with the pungent perfume of laboring men. And Eosin-Deupin was their lord. The Lord of Rue de Pierot. He wanted to impress me with his fiefdom, thriving out of spite inside the carcass of the slums that were supposed to kill us. He was powerful; it showed in the promise of violence in his laugh, the dangerous glint of his smile, the strength of his hands. When he spoke people listened, drawn in by the same magnetized allure that had me coming back to Rue de Pierot every night.
We were two, maybe three blocks down Pierot when his hand brushed against mine. There were fresh wounds on his knuckles from fighting. There had been some skirmishes between the Periot jackals and the foreman of the textile house two roads down. The scrapes were just a trophy for the jaws he'd broken. I thought they were attractive. He watched me from the side of his eye, pretending not to notice. So I continued the game. My fingers drew into his, and caressed the puckered scars with my thumb. I remember I was fascinated by how these hands that wrought so much violence could be so gentle, so light. The teeth of that wild dog I'd saw was gone, replaced by the big, dopey puppy of Rue de Pierot. I liked the danger, and I liked how I could be what de-fanged the hound, all just for a kiss.
The cold makes the skin feel sharp, makes the joints stiff, shrinks metal, expands water. Rain mingled with snow in drifts on the street burying the debris. Tonight was different: he wasn't under the spotlight on his corner. When I walked further I saw the commotion, the undulating bodies outside the old dive bar, tossing each other around like waves wrestling with loose bottles. The wonderful cries of shattering glass broke through the din of violence, the percussion of fists and batons on big hollow bellies.
I was dumbstruck, awed and horrified at the great debate of violence, the universal conversation of beasts. Before I could decide what to do with myself, or remember my proximity to the danger, there was this awful, terrible POP.
All at once, that old, bloated carcass of a tavern groaned. Languishing in it's final death cry as the whole frame shuddered. Men screamed and howled along with the sound, while the wise ones began to escape the bowing foundation. Water and steam flooded the street. Fire blossomed from the kitchen window. Then, the court of Rue de Pierot collapsed in on itself like a deflated balloon.
I found him, among the rubble. My body was moving before I knew what I was doing. Drawn to him, with our magnetized pull. He looked like a child's abused toy. Limbs twisted in ways they shouldn't be able to go. A shin bone protruding from his pant leg. And his face. Blood greased his hair to his face. His eye had ruptured in the explosion, and pooled in his skull like jelly. His movements were infantile, like the gurgling sounds that came from his bruised lips. I heard him ask for his mother, as his fingers hooked into my skirt. He begged for me for something. Was it kiss? Kill? Kiss? Kill?
There was a large sheet of ceramic in arm's reach. The jelly of his eye, his head, kept tilting toward it. The stench of death was suffocating. His gurgling was deafening. My hands were going numb. I was choking on my own tongue. The five o'clock bells were ringing. Kiss? Kill? Kiss me. Kill me. Kiss me. Kill me.
I did both.
(I hate politics.)
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