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Eien

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Re: Vaeldian - Memories of a Stranded Soul
« Reply #25 on: November 11, 2020, 12:23:52 PM »
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The mistwalking trial is now behind me.
With that, I closed the door on the demons of my past.
With that, I open a door to a new future.

It has been some time now since I first stepped in Barovia.

I am now Warden to a faith I didn't even know existed.
I know the culture and speak the tongue of this land.
And... I will soon be married.

My life has changed so much.

Barovia is my home now, I made my decision.
I will accept the will of the Mist and make this place my home.
I have grown a strange bond with the city of Vallaki.

I feel it is written in the Grand Scheme for me to stay here.

This city seems so frail and so strong at the same time.
Devoured by the Legion of the Night in every corner.
But the people endure, they have been tempered.

At first I could not stand Barovians, now I admire them.

I want to grow the bond that I have with this city.
I want to show the people of Vallaki that our church cares for them.
I want to show them that there is more than just the will to convert them.

I want to make this city a better place for them.

I do not care if they will call me outlander until the end of my days.
I do not care if there will ever be Legion and Heresy growing like weed.
I do not care if there is little hope for salvation.

I will do whatever it takes to make this city a better place.

Through the path of the Home Faith.
Through the path of the Church.
Through the path of Our Sainted Mother.

May Ezra guide my soul.

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Re: Vaeldian - Memories of a Stranded Soul
« Reply #26 on: November 16, 2020, 07:22:22 PM »
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I can't sleep.
There is so much in me I feel I am going to explode.
I just can't find a way to sleep.

I have failed.

I have been unwise.
I have been arrogant.
I have been careless.

At the expenses of a young Acolyte.

She now lives, but I will not forget.
I cant help but look at her and see my own faults.
How is she not angry at me? How are not the others who witnessed this, angry at me?

"Because they are better than you."

I hear that voice again, it's him.
How could it be?
I thought it was over.

"They are not angry because they are better than you.
Once again you demonstrated how clueless you are.
Warden, they call you, you are a joke."


No... I bear Her shield, I am worthy.

"Are you, Vaeldian?
Not only you have thrown the life of an Acolyte away when you could have avoided it.
You mistakenly raised her as Legion, everybody saw your lack of judgement."


They did...

"You are not worthy, Vaeldian.
You are just a clueless outlander wearing green.
They. Are. Better. Than. You."


They are...

"And you should quit."

I cannot, I will strive to get better.
What I am is not enough, not nearly enough.
Some say I am too harsh on myself, but I am not.

I will seek confession.
I feel tainted by sin.
I am ashamed.

I need to lead by example... right now... I cannot.

Ezra please forgive me.
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Re: Vaeldian - Memories of a Stranded Soul
« Reply #27 on: December 20, 2020, 07:04:49 AM »
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Toret of the Refuge of the Fifth Light.
Me, the outlander from a forgotten corner of his own world.
I suppose everyone stops to think about what the future holds.

Surely there was no way to predict this.

I for one surely did not expect this.
I see my recent past as a road littered by avoidable mistakes.
Some think I deserve this, but I do not agree.

But why did I accept?

I tried to answer this question in past few days.
I believe that I found a proper answer.
The truth is that I trust the judgement of those above me, more than I trust my own.

I can't really say how good or bad this is, but in fact, I chose to trust Sentire Costinus.

I started to think about the extent of my own loyalty.
Sometimes I stop to think if there should be anything more important than that.
Sometimes I feel this side of me hurts those I love, like Mirhiban.

I think again about what happened during my trial, something has changed after that, in me.

Ezra saw me worthy, witnessing my actions.
So what I have done during the trial was the right thing to do.
Still, now there is something different when I look at her.

Perhaps a life of faith and dedication is meant to be like this?

I will focus on my new role now, regardless.
The honor bestowed upon me is beyond I could ever imagine.
This is the path I have chosen and I will keep following it.

Blessed be Her name.
Blessed be Her church.
Praised be Ezra, Our Guardian in the Mists.

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Re: Vaeldian - Memories of a Stranded Soul
« Reply #28 on: January 26, 2021, 04:43:02 PM »
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I am sitting at the usual spot in the mountain, but everything is different.
The snow is gone, the land is barren, the lake is dry.
It's dusk, a red sun is falling behind the mountains.

"So it has come." My brother Ailen now stands beside me.

"What do you mean?" I reply.

"The Time of Unparalleled Darkness.
The irony... you escaped death just to see another world die.
You also found love in such short time."

"I know..."

"How do you feel?"

"Every day is a gift, I should have been dead anyway."

"Stop it, I want to talk with my brother... not with Toret Melthar."

I sigh. "Fine."

"So, how do you feel?"

"I fear that those I love will suffer, that we will all suffer.
Life is temporary, we will be finding peace after death.
I just fear that the... transition... will be painful."

"So you now truly believe that?
You truly have found faith in the end?
Something more than just loyalty."


"I think I have."

"I think I wouldn't have liked you being a man of faith, if I were still alive.
But I am happy for you, it seems that Ezra truly helped you to find your way.
The church means so much to you... it's like you needed something to call family, to care about."

"I guess you are right."

"I think that's enough to walk towards the end of the world without regrets.
You found love, you found family, you found faith.
I suppose you are ready."


"We will not see each other on the other side though..."

"...I know."

"Wherever you are, I hope you have stopped suffering, brother."