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Pure of Heart - Matthew Garrett
« on: December 18, 2018, 10:55:54 PM »
An entry written in a leather bound journal simple in construction and smelling of new leather and stamped with a holy symbol. The penmanship is flowing and filled with flourishes. The language recognizable as High Mordentish.

Hail Ezra, full of grace, you are with me. These are words that remind me of my mission.  Ezra, a healer and a guardian, sought the redemption, salvation, and protection of her people even unto death. Is there a greater love in all the world? I venture no. Is there a nobler duty than to risk ruin to spread the love of Ezra? Certainly not.

My mind and my heart are troubled. I stand resolute that Ezra loved me before I even knew her just as she loves each and every person who resides in the Hollow. I recall my lessons with, then, Inquisitor Martel. He spoke plainly of the schism between Felix Wachter and Cathedral of Levkarest. I have often prayed to understand how such a schism could be possible let alone the two that came after it. I see now in the distance the long way home.

As Ezra stood staring into the Mists, she uttered four final words So Must It Be. The Grand Scheme will unfold where my destiny lies even if I do not know it at this juncture. I will continue to demonstrate Ezra's love and grace to others as my faith demands. I try each and every day to offer the kindness and love that Ezra showed me the hour I first believed .

I am not a perfect man. I do strive to be pure of heart.
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Re: Pure of Heart - Matthew Garrett
« Reply #1 on: December 20, 2018, 10:10:59 AM »
Soil. It was very liberating to spend time engaged in a labor that involved no intrigue. The turning of the soil at the Shrine of Dutiful Mercy was a blessed affair. Mademoiselle Lang, Toret Martel, and Toret Barbarigo came to aid me in the turning of the fields. I learned a great deal from Mademoiselle Lang about the fertilization of soil and the removal of invasive plants.  Also, I learned that it is best to have someone watch when you pull a thornbush from the dirt as you may fall upon your rear.

I have sent notice across Barovia and even into Dementliu to acquire a merchant from which to purchase the seeds and seedlings needed to begin the planting in short order. I hope many will donate to the cause. The people of the Village of Barovia, in my short time here tending the Shrine, have exhibited little joy. They have extremely hard lives. I hope that this small project will brighten some days.  Also, I hope the garden party later in the year will also bring happiness and demonstrate the love of Ezra to this forlorn community.

Toret Martel said that the Shrine used to be filled with paraphernalia;however, he suspects that after Toret Byrne's departure that the place was ransacked.  Now, only the altar and a few mats remain. I think I will begin to acquire items to fill it.

Ezra watch over and keep me as I work to bring Her love and the hope of salvation to the people of this town.

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Re: Pure of Heart - Matthew Garrett
« Reply #2 on: July 10, 2019, 03:31:19 PM »
Much has happened since last I put pen to paper. Toret Barbarigo has been married to now Warden Teresca Barbarigo nee' Mitrea. It was a lovely ceremony. I was honored to officiate.

The Church has seen a great deal of growth. I spend much of my time at the Redoubtable Chapel of Our Eternal Guardian.  Many pass through seeking naively to end the curse on the lands and the keep or in search of what little remains of the von Zeklos' fortunes.

The lands surrounding Raduta are occupied by simple folk. I have been unable to acquire a meeting with the Wachter family, but I will continue to ask. The people are suspicious, but less so with constant contact.

The Church as a whole has suffered set backs and turmoil, but we endure. New Acolytes and Initiates are being trained, and the number anchorites grows giving respite from the days when there were so very very few of us.

I have given thought of asking Bastion Otrava to recommend me to the Praesidius as a member of the Inquisition or to be a Toret bound to Raduta though I pray to understand if it is a desire to help or for advancement. I dare not ask such until I am certain of the motivations of my heart.
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« Reply #3 on: July 12, 2019, 10:55:15 PM »
Pride is a horrible sin born of self-importance and self-righteousness.  How deceptive it is in its masquerade as compassion and care. It seems the desire to redeem can become as addictive as Hazlani Poppy. Even the Purest of Hearts can fall victim to the feeling that comes from being the instrument of redemption.

Grace is, however, subtle and unassuming. It stands at the door and knocks. Any who wish it to enter have but to invite it in and in doing so choose the salvation promised us by Ezra. Unfortunately, the prevailing thought of many is that grace is available always, so go and sin and return to the front porch and beckon a beaten grace to enter. It cannot. For in abandoning grace, one forfeits salvation. The deal that Ezra made with the Mists was that the Legion of the Night or the People of the Hollow could choose.  Once the choice is made, however, the deal is struck and it cannot be redone over and over.

I write this, because, I hope my brethren will love unconditionally and always offer the grace of Ezra to those who are ignorant of her sacrifice and in need of salvation.  However, I hope that in equal parts they will not feel the need to chase the lost who have actively chosen to turn from the love of Ezra thus chasing the addictive high of redemption instead of the duty Ezra gave us to to minster to the lost and introduce the souls who have not made a choice to her love.

M. Garrett
12th Day of July

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« Reply #4 on: July 14, 2019, 01:04:20 AM »
As I sit to write this missive, I am rather exhausted. I had not planned on such a day as this, but the Grande Scheme often unfolds in unexpected ways. I received a letter from Initiate Icescar notifying me that Simona Cornescu has returned to the area and wished to speak with me. Simona was always kind to me, so I set off for Vallaki from Raduta to speak with her. Arriving in Vallaki, I asked a hin by the name of Valentine that Acolyte Lazarescu and I rescued from a cave recently to inquire about Simona inside the Cultist's temple so as not to enter myself. She was not there.

A man by the name of Durst asked me to speak with a rather colorfully dressed and possibly mad man Ash. He suspected that the man was a thrall. I believe he is simply mad.

During this conversation, a group ran up talking about a colleague who fell in a secret passage between the Crypts and Keep of Raduta. I immediately knew what they were speaking of and offered to assist. We travelled to the area and recovered the body of a man named Alf.  Upon return to the Redoubtable Chapel, I prayed for the return of the man's soul. Ezra did grace him and return his soul.

The man's travelling companions were interested in the message of Ezra, so we talked at length about the love of Ezra. Sometimes, the Grande Scheme unfolds, and I am consistently amazed with the opportunities that Ezra provides me to spread the message of her love.

Tonight, I will sing hosanas in my dreams for I am beyond blessed.

M. Garrett
13th Day of July

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« Reply #5 on: July 16, 2019, 11:17:44 PM »
Lust. I have been contemplating this topic following a conversation with the clergy recently. Oui, we have all sinned and fallen short of the glory of Ezra. Ezra commands that we love our fellow people. She does, however, forbid the wanton recklessness of lust and fornication.

I admit that I am very uncomfortable with such topics. I wear my discomfort in rosy display upon my cheeks for the entire world to see. I fear this produces disquiet in the faithful when I do so. I, therefore, pray that my nerves be steeled against such displays of discomfort by her grace. Truly, I cannot often help that I am woefully unprepared to discuss the sins of the flesh.

I admire the love that I see in others that surround me. I am not certain that such love will ever find me. If it does, I am likely to scare it away by turning crimson and stuttering most profusely. How is it that I can speak with great conviction and purpose about the forgiveness of sin, yet I cannot even entertain the idea of a dinner with someone that I may be interested in without feeling as if there is a scarlet sin sitting upon my cheeks?

Ezra guide me.

M. Garrett
16th day of July

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Re: Pure of Heart - Matthew Garrett
« Reply #6 on: July 18, 2019, 12:06:57 AM »
I was asked recently why I smile so much. In all honesty, I did not realize that I smiled more than perhaps others.  So, as I reflected on the scriptures and prayed to Ezra, it occurred to me that I find joy in the mundane and happiness in laborious tasks, because I know without a doubt that I am redeemed. Though the world around me is filled with perversions and disappointments, they are present but a moment in time. I know my redeemer lives, and as long as she stands within the Mist for me, who am I to despair.

I was born an imperfect soul in a desolate land to parents who loved Ezra, me, and each other in that order. I was taught humility cleaning the kitchens of the Chapel of the Pure Hearts where my mother was a cook. I was taught fairness by my father who insisted on being an honest merchant even if it meant being a poor one. So, I travel through Barovia, and each person I see I have no choice but to smile for my redeemer lives and wishes to redeem them as well. The light in my soul yearns to overcome the darkness in theirs. I do not meet anger with aggression or scorn with discontent. In each case, I greet them with a smile born of the love of Ezra in the hopes that they will choose to do the same. So, I smile.

M. Garrett
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