Cult of the panther...
We are neither quite man nor beast...[1] ...A panther is a black leopard or jaguar.
Those who would tell me how I ought to live my life, but do not have the answers for theirs...ARE WRONG.
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Dear Arlee and I found out today that she apparently has a twin-sister she never knew about.
I was a little suspicious. I have heard stories of in places like Paridon about creatures called dopplegangers impersonating friends, relatives and loved ones to infiltrate into your life. We had her hold some silver to apparently no ill-effect though so I guess "Arleena" is not a doppleganger.
In retrospect: Those who would criticize me for having the feelings and experiences which I do within the pages of my own journal and whom have nothing better to do than attack it for being dissimilar to their own should get a grip; ...For I can already anticipate their complaints.My God, Yutow the Peacebringer, known as One who is dead yet still holds power... He who holds dominion over man, plant, spirit and beast...
He grants me this power. I am found a worthy vessel to be one of His chosen. I was born a cat eyes and raised in our shamanic traditions. Strictly.
My childhood was a rather joyless affair. Our training methods devised by the wise-women and medicine men are brutal yet effective.
Why would the priest to a God whose portfolio chiefly contains nature and fertility be necessarily chaste and completely ascetic? I believe you have confused clergy with monks.
The important thing for a moarnekone is to have a commmunity focus and loyalty to the crown of the barony (The Kharkov family). He or she shall be well-versed in the tales of Yutow's sacrifice during the Pacification War of our ancestors.
A moarnekone is not slave to the whims of the typical black leopard militia thug or bratty noble. Nor are we above them; rather, our place is to act as rural magistrates. We are all tools of the State used by our society to maintain order. In a civic sense. For our ruler is said to be divinely appointed. The number of assassination attempts the baron has survived over the years stands as evidence of his being favored by providence.
Still... something is quite likely amiss with Castle Pantara, though it is not my place to attempt discerning what. I will let some other adventurers make their names or seal their fates going after that particular quest.
I am content to qualify being a high priest in the Church and to have to me offered the family which I have long been denied.
Moarnekone means "married to the moon" and it is a derogatory term since we renew our prayer at moonrise. It does not literally mean we are a ceibate order. You have to learn to read between the lines oh thou uninitiated.
I do like the relationship I have with Arlee. It is as she says though, there is no rush. We are both afforded much longer lifespans than the average human due to our particular
inheritances, you might say. My sweet friend. A relationship is as a garden, to be tended to and cultivated yes, in order to see what from the seeds might bloom.
The future is in this sense not able to be fully discerned in advance by us mere mortals. I think though... signs indicate our future is good. The brief moments I pause to think of this fill my heart with a content feeling, difficult to put into words or explain. It is how does one say, somewhat warm and a bit... fuzzy?
I do not feel this feeling often.
Thank you Peacebringer for always watching and listening.Your proud and yet humble servant,
-Cristan Keldan, born of Ungrad.