Things which should be are not.
Conversely, things which should not be, are.
Where did it all go wrong?
Everyone else seems to have gotten much more powerful than I am and in relatively short time.
This lack of connectedness is really taxing me and I don’t think...,
Well, I don’t know how much further I am going to be able to continue with no bonds.
Strength in identity is diluted but also solidified when you are the only one of your kind around.
I wish I would stop being on the periphery, that there was more going on in my life.
Being so very removed from everyone else around me does not feel good.
Nothing will welcome you with open arms. Everyone rubs in your face their clubs, guilds, factions and associations and they tell you to submit to their will as price of initiation.
They demand an abject humility, a fawning servile attitude that is disgusting.
They attack you for being “proud” and “arrogant” for not playing this game, this ritual show of obedience to their less than true authority... are their senses of worth so fragile, their positions so truly weak they need this show of piety performed regularly as though they are a king and you are their slave,... in order to assert that their framework of reality which is subjective, that it must indeed be correct?
I submit to Yutow Peacebringer, my Ghostly Lord in the sky and to Baron Kharkov, the terrestrial Lord of my people’s land.
...and you, my friend, are not they.
You who are not they have no business attempting to order me around. You are not some great chief and respect is earned. So many petty chiefs, tyrants, hiding behind their institutions, their organizations... using their titles to demand fealty.
Or what?I nor they owe each other any real explanation. This is simply the way of things. Both the things which are natural and the things which they have set up, those things which are artificial.