Frustratingly, I feel the potential is there for me to be an even greater physician, alchemist and mage but progress goes not as quickly as it could.
I can't sit comfortably. The next circle of magic is staring me down, taunting me, so tantalizingly remaining just a little outside my grasp. I am almost there but when?
I am a disciplined arcane and traditional scholar but lack of a proper mystic tutor might be the issue holding me back. One can only get so far with intense self-directed study.
I have to do my wife, my family, my country, King and god proudly.
Be the best Doctor, mentor, mage and boss/master I can be.
Also Give Mytteri no quarter.
I wish to dispel some of the negative misconceptions people have of my people and our land and show these ignorant savages that yes, there are positive attributes of Hazlani culture and the Mulan people.
Some fundamentally idiotic and maliciously barbarous stories of us have been propagated in Vallaki by troublemakers and those who are infected by Mytteri. Those who allow themselves to succumb to its temptations allow their mouths to flap spreading harmful seeds of discord. Don't they understand that in an orderly system there is elegance and that every member in a community is meant to make the whole greater in their own way? Laws, rules and behavioral protocols are by design made to help keep people from straying too far off the deep end.
Let chaos not seduce you. It will promise much but in the end always destroys those it speaks to. It does so without mercy, without hesitation.
We all have our roles and functions to serve in the social machine. Each of us is as a component and when all is meshed properly, the gears' teeth not misaligned, everything is well-oiled then much greatness is possible.
Everybody has a job to keep the community running smoothly, from the lowest slave to the mighty governors.
There has to be a sense of unity in purpose and an understanding that you affect more than just your selfIsh direct own limited sphere. Otherwise how do you expect to achieve hegemony?
Power, greatness, fortune? These are worked towards. Systematically progress moves forward.
I fully believe this is a recipe for success.
I think these people all cosmic detritus from various realms spat from the mists and deposited into an apparent planar nexus centered around Barovia's Vallaki oft lack this sense of purpose.
If they believe it to be every man and each group for themselves, then no wonder there is much strife.
This isn't the fault of the Garda. They try their best.