Do I still serve the Morninglord?
Being demoted to janitor I wonder sometimes. Being told by people before repeatedly that everything I did/said was mostly terrible felt bad.
Is that what the New Dawn is about?
I thought it was about opportunities to do better.
Do I believe in the Morninglord? Sure.
Do I think He's gonna help me out? Probably not. No not really.
I don't ask a lot of Him and He doesn't ask a lot from me.
Father Allek told me he believes he met the Morninglord one time during an epiphany and that He seemed as far as gods go like a pretty regular unassuming guy.
I wish I could have some sort of sign that I'm doing the right thing or to reinforce my faith.
It's kinda rough. Just... Even a little sign of some sort.
Maybe the lack of such a sign is a sign. Is it a sign this is the wrong faith for me?
People were critical of me that I didn't have a large wellspring of hope.
Especially when it got beaten out of me.
I still helped people. I'll still say I do it in the name of the Morninglord and what he represents but people don't like it. If they don't like that too bad then.
He hasn't let me down. He just probably wants me to keep doing that work.
Some of the priests might not like it. That's fine.
Tinu dumped me. I'm not sure I can take both the demotion and this...