Present Day...
The scent of crushed herbs filled the room - tea leaves and chamomile, dried orange rinds and honeycomb - and the sound of stone against stone, pestle against mortar, echoed in her ears. The routine was familiar, calming, her wrist twisting with each grind, her chest rising and falling with the slow, even draw of her breath. She wasn't in a hurry. There was nowhere she wanted to go, and no one she wanted to see. She simply wanted to be - to exist in a quiet moment, to let her thoughts settle, and the painfully erratic flow of her magic with it.
He could probably smell it - the cat that was no cat. Smell the magic on her, bubbling in her veins and racing just beneath the layers of her skin, aching for release. It was difficult to calm the torrent when her emotions were so unsettled, and there was no outlet here to ease the build-up. She could only endure. Breathe in. Breathe out. Breathe in. Breathe out. Until it faded, dulled.
"What happened, little witch?" She was surprised to feel the cat brush against her. He almost never touched her directly, always just out of reach, watching her with the sickeningly yellow orbs of his eyes. Her hand stilled, fingers wrapped around the pestle, gray-eyed gaze flickering to the creature. He settled next to her, so close that his fur brushed her knee, pupil-less eyes turned up towards her.
She felt a shudder run through her body, starting at the center of her heart and radiating outwards to tingle in the tips of her fingers and toes - a surge that crackled in the air around her, a few small sparks born and swallowed again in an instant.
She didn't want to talk about it. She didn't want to remember. Even with the infusion of herbs so close at hand, she could still smell the acrid odor of burning flesh and hair clinging to the insides of her nose. The screams, the wet thuds and screech of metal had faded somewhat, muted in the back of her mind, but the scent remained. They hadn't needed to die. But perhaps it had been a mercy to kill them, sparing them a fate far worse. She didn't know if that made it alright.
She didn't know if her familiar could read her thoughts, either. Sometimes it seemed like he could, the way his preternatural gaze pierced her all the way down to her cowering soul. She didn't want to know what he would say, if he had seen what she had done. She didn't want to be praised for
this.
Breathe in. Breathe out. Breathe in. Breathe out. The rising tide of her magic had become so strong that she could feel every tendon in her body drawing taut, goosebumps rising against her skin, hair standing on edge, the air in the room statically charged to such a degree that the cat that was no cat drew his maw back to reveal small, sharp teeth, hissing.
"Go away," she whispered, pleading, begging. Her control was so thin, she was afraid of what might happen if the familiar pushed her, as he so often did.
"Go away." Not asking anymore, but pressed through their bond. It was, perhaps, the first time in their many years together that she had commanded him so. He did not bend to her will easily, and she had never quite dared to test him.
He was gone by the time she had drawn her next breath, melting into the shadows as if he were made of them, at least partially, himself. She bent over the mortar, breathing deep the sweet scent of dried herb, crushed and ground, until the pain subsided and the tightly locked muscles in her jaw loosened again.
She was tired. So tired.
There was nowhere she wanted to go, and no one she wanted to see. She simply wanted to be.