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Revenge. It tastes so good. A depressed soldier betrayed by those he loved. A paranoid and increasingly recluse witch. A scared girl full of regrets running from the gallows and afraid of losing her love. And all of them sleeping with one eye open. I loved that feeling. I loved that more than anything. But I was losing my focus. And he was watching me. He was clear, every step I take towards my revenge, its a step away from the truth, from the true power he would show me, give me. Sometimes I think it would be easier if he asked me to kill Monica, would be easier to kill my love than my hate. I had to let it go. To take the risk of seeing them prospering, happy.... or worse... seeing others taking what was mine, their blood. I have no choice. It's the sacrifice I have to do to be worthy. I'll let them go ... is not easy, now I remember... I remember what that witch did to me... I never imagined that the Midway bathtub would bring back so many memories... the smell of bath salts... whore... And that elvish bitch still laughs at me, of all of them... the only one I had pity, the only one I tried to save... and dont even know why. Her laughter wont hurt me anymore, it's so artificial as my mask.
Wouldn't be easy to get away from them. I moved my last pieces, I sent letters, whispered in dark corners and put everything at stake for the last time, trying to fix the damage I had already made. Its too late now and its not my problem anymore, its not my war. I'm out, I told him and I hope he understood. Its over.
Away from all this problems for a few days, I'm starting to get back to my old form, Monica is introducing me to some hunting parties. I'm still fragile, I was so worried about my face that I forgot that witch opened me all over, exposed my nerves, played with them. It still hurts, if it wasnt for those people I would have died in that damn temple of Sobek.
My father came to see me again, he was proud of me. He forbade me to kneel, to him or to anyone. Those who serve who we serve do not kneel before anyone, he said. He gave me the last test. Three tasks. I'll do better than he asked for, I'll surprise him, I will make him proud. And then.. I will be beautiful again. More than ever.
Monica can never know, she would never forgive me.