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Re: Aurore, the Sun Always Rises
« Reply #50 on: February 11, 2013, 06:08:26 PM »
I take solace now in the darkness of the Silver Threads Monastery Dormitory. 

Its empty halls provide some silence, some isolation.  Perhaps I can think, perhaps I can find a way to control myself.

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Re: Aurore, the Sun Always Rises
« Reply #51 on: February 14, 2013, 11:42:34 PM »
I told myself so long ago I'd never touch it again.

Opium.

The feeling.  Look what I've done.  I slept with four three people at once.  I barely even knew them.  

And yet, I love it.

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Re: Aurore, the Sun Always Rises
« Reply #52 on: February 23, 2013, 01:32:56 AM »
"Farewell."

I love you, Inari. 

So, so much. 

There's so much I wish I could take back.

So much I wish I could have said.

Forgive me.

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Re: Aurore, the Sun Always Rises
« Reply #53 on: February 23, 2013, 03:26:21 AM »
I have Inari's remains.  I should be happy it's over, but I'm not.

It just reminds me I'm alone.  Inari was my first.  I was childish enough to be interested in Tabitha.  Part of me wants to try and get her.  But I know that would only result in turmoil.  Not to mention having to deal with Chali.
 I can see it in her eyes when she sees me.  Jealousy, and paranoia.
 She thinks I'm a home wrecking whore.  If I tried anything, things may become bloody.  And considering my condition, it'd be me the one injured or dead.

That aside, Tess has been supporting me.  Tabitha wants to, yet Chali seems to always arrive when I need my friend the most.  Giving me looks.  Silent ques to get the hell out of her sight.

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Re: Aurore, the Sun Always Rises
« Reply #54 on: February 24, 2013, 02:50:45 AM »
WHERE IS MY CARNIVAL TRIP

I've waited, and waited.  I've paid for the trip there already!  The Vistani claimed they would take me "soon", but it's been months!  I heard rumors of their magics, their abilities to shape the human form.  I must go there, I must change my image.

Aurore did everything wrong.  She barked at the wrong people, she forgot that when the truth is spoken, some may wish to silence it.

I intend to change image before that happens.

Madame Eva, you placed a curse on me!  You claim you desire three tasks done, or else I will turn to ash.  Yet she will not tell me what must be done!  I have several who would help me, yet she will not send word!

I NEED TO TIE THE LOOSE ENDS. 

I have one curse to deal with, I do not need another.

I've lost too much. 

I'm too lonely.  I'm not good looking enough to attract someone to love me, at least for long periods. 

I can't be prettier, but what if I could be more than human?

More than human.

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Re: Aurore, the Sun Always Rises
« Reply #55 on: February 25, 2013, 02:01:50 PM »
What now, Aurore?  Do you know who you are anymore? 

Nameless, without family, with a heart ripe with rage. 

You wish to be the heroine of this story.  You wish to be like Eliza.

You will never be her.

Because I know who you are.

Do you feel like a hero, yet, Aurore?

Your mother knows your heart better than you know your own.

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Re: Aurore, the Sun Always Rises
« Reply #56 on: March 02, 2013, 02:47:07 AM »
Damn you, Lucadia.  For one as powerful as you, your will is weak.  You give up the fight with a baby on the way.  You create delusions that everyone hates you, and that your loved ones never cared.

Lucadia, you are one of the very few non-humans I can mentally tolerate, or at least could.  And now?  You make me sick.  I all but begged you to keep fighting, yet all you do is return to your ball of self pity.

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In other news, I do not think my sickness has gotten worse.  Mind you, it's not better.  A part of me, my damnable academic desire, wants to see what I become in the further stages of the sickness.  I can't.  I have to remain strong for dear Heart.  My Raven sister. 

I plan to ask if I might have her last name.  Maybe Inari's last name?  I want both.  I do not have a legal name or last name, so I may do as I damn well please.

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The Fourth Sect, or at least Heris who is Lacusta's lapdog, has been watching Stefania.  Damnit all, I do not want to be in the middle of this, but I do not want to see Stefania killed.  I swore to go into silence.  I should try to get her to do so as well.

I gave her my last dose of opium to help her cope.  She better not have thrown it away behind my back.

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Re: Aurore, the Sun Always Rises
« Reply #57 on: March 10, 2013, 10:22:43 AM »
I've lost everything. 

What now?

Only an empty heart remains.

I should find Tess. 

I could use a fix.

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Re: Aurore, the Fall
« Reply #58 on: March 17, 2013, 03:21:35 PM »
Moral Entropy


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Re: Aurore, the Fall
« Reply #59 on: March 22, 2013, 05:38:35 PM »
Time for new beginnings.

Strive to do what Eliza would want.

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Re: Aurore, the Fall
« Reply #60 on: March 24, 2013, 08:18:07 PM »
This journal lies in the hands of someone else.

Ashes cover the binding.