I'm still trying to wrap my mind around whatever the hells just happened.
Now that that has been recorded, I will give it a try. I was speaking with Blue in our usual daytime place. We were discussing plans of action for events previously recorded. I felt something closing in, but I was not sure what. Unfortunately, it turned out to be that idiot Jax. That feeling was just his unmistakable stench drifting on the breeze as he approaches. He came as a messenger for some mysterious employer. Now...due to my...recent interaction...with the drain, I was very wary of following a man I barely know to an unknown place to meet a person he refused to name. I asked questions, got a bit of information. The Drain was (naturally) where he wanted me to go, and he claimed his employer was not asking. I wanted to flee, but I didn't. If this man wanted me dead, he would not have sent Jax, who possesses the silent foot of an Ox as far as my ears are concerned. So I went...followed him down the familiar tunnels for what I was half-sure was the last time. Oh, but before I left, I told three separate people who to go after, should I not come back. They swore to kill him if it came to it. No hesitation ..... I rather like my comrades.
We arrived in the meeting room and he locked the door behind me. The situation became all to familiar. Nearly a day ago I had killed a man in the same manner, this would be quite a poetic end, would it not? It was now three to one, and I was locked in. I half expected Blue to bang on the door, and was relieved when she didn't. Well....as relieved as a man about to be executed can be, that is. At any rate, the man introduced himself. Made small talk for a few moments, then told me about myself. Yes, told ME about MYSELF. Clearly he has more eyes than just Jax and the other man in there with him. He asked me where I got my goods from, and I was left with a decision to make. Tell him, and prove my lack of loyalty to one of the men that had allowed me my....small...successes this far? Refuse him, and have him beat it out of me anyways? I opted to tell him, saving my own strength for possible escape when he made his move to kill me. What did I care if he knew? I was at his mercy, here. I was his prisoner. He would get his information, or kill me trying. And if I was dead, what did any of this matter? Besides, I have been sitting on THAT particular shipment far too long. Drukker probably thinks I stole it. He is no doubt already quite upset with me, will this really even make it worse? Well...it did. The leader of the trio was quite unhappy, to say the least. He showed a large amount of disgust that I would give up the information so easily. I must admit, I felt the crushing burden of the mistake already. I knew better than to do that. What the hells was I thinking? I was trained better than this. Why was I faltering now, of all times? Perhaps I had already resigned to death. Perhaps I felt it was inescapable. Regardless of what I was thinking, I was wrong.
I heard a familiar voice from behind me. Harsh, cold, condemning my actions. The Owl. Suddenly things began to fall together, and I understood what was going on. All I could do was stare down at the table in sheer, crushing embarrassment. I had failed. This was the moment I had been training for. This was what every assignment, every mission, every discussion on discretion and stealth had been preparing me for, and FIVE DAMN SECONDS in the door I had already blown everything with a momentary lapse in judgement. I figured after that, I deserved to die. I had not been taken here for blood, but now I was sure going to see some. Probably my own. There was nothing I could do to avoid it now. The Owl told me to pick a sword and Tymora be with me.. I did not even look, I just picked the one on the right side. It mattered little to me now, as I had lost everything I worked for. I was out of the game. I had thrown it all away. I was going to end up like the rest of the Dyka after all. He drew the blade and stabbed it into the table in front of me. I looked weakly over to it, curious why it had not been brought down on my neck.
"RETRIBUTION"
Those were the words on the blade, and I heard his voice say something cold about it being an unfortunate choice. If I was not sure to be killed before, it was happening now. So be it. I had walked into this willingly, and destroyed it beyond repair with the first words out of my mouth. There was nowhere for me to go now. I only hoped it would be a swift kill. It's funny...the things you think about in your last moments. I wondered how long Blue would wait for me before she realized I was not coming back. I wondered which blessing Decimus would use to kill Jax. I wondered if Janos would ever find out I had died, or simply hunt me for the few years of life his old body had in it. I wondered about Blue, again. My training had changed her. What would she do? I know she cares about me as more than a business partner, what will this cause her to do when I do not return? She should stop drinking so much, that is how Morgan got killed-
The door flew open and that Tiefling from Hoth's bar came in. He asked if everything was alright. At some point while I was lost in my thoughts, I had been commanded to cut my own tongue out, and refused. He was going to do it for me. He told the Tiefling that we were fine. I agreed with him, assuring him it was only Merchant Training. He left after a time, and I held the dagger in my hand, testing the edge for sharpness. The Owl stopped me, though, saying that I could have used the opportunity to escape. To yell for help. He said that it showed promise that I did no such thing, that maybe the lessons were sinking in. It may have worked, in the short term, but I knew better. I was not going anywhere. If the Owl was working with this man as a partner, he was surely every bit as dangerous as the Owl is. Which...seemed impossible to me until now. The man agreed with the owl's judgement, and let me keep my tongue as a reward.
The rest was rather uneventful. They talked me in circles, breaking me in a way extremely similar to the way I broke Blue. They had to be sure I was loyal. They had to be sure I would not give them up as I have given away the Goose, trying to save my own skin in pathetic desperation. I would not. I would rather die than give up the Owl, because if I were ever to even consider it, I would be dead before I hit the ground. I honestly believe he may have a method of reading minds or anticipating feelings or thoughts. I am not sure, but he is always one step ahead of everyone, no matter who it is, no matter how hard you try to seem like you have done something original. As far as I am concerned, he simply knows what I will do and allows me to carry out my mistakes only to tell me what I did wrong as soon as I do it. The man is far more intelligent than anyone I am used to dealing with. I am far out of my league with him, and this other man...this Raven...he is just as good. I can see why the Owl would want him as a partner. Together, these two men control things. Everything. I understood now. These men did not just work in the shadows, they ARE the shadows. The darkness does not fall without their permission, and it does not leave at the coming of the light unless it tells them farewell. The Raven told me I would be working through him. Because of my...questionable... trustworthiness, he would deal with all goods reports and coin. I understood. I tried to keep my responses short and simple, to keep from saying something foolish to shorten my lifespan even more. He claims that soon, a shipment will arrive to my hands along with a small purse to purchase items of interest.
After a while, we all parted ways. I found Dec, Luca, and Blue, and told them I was fine. I dared not tell them who I met, or what happened. I merely told him that Jax played up the importance of who I was going to meet, and it was merely another person wishing to move goods through me. Nothing extreme. He only met me in the drain because he heard I do business there, and wanted me to be in a familiar place for the meeting. I told them that I also delt with the Janos issue, and was now safe. Protected, even. Didn't say how. It went smoothly, they relaxed. Everything is as it should be. The Raven promised me his protection as long as I work for him and do not try to collect the two hundred thousand fang bounty on him. Simple enough orders, no problem there. This also means that Janos and his thug caliban will have to give me some room. The Raven also gave me permission to use his name to get out of trouble, though I do not plan on needing to resort to that. I know better than to walk around throwing out names, and I will NOT make the same mistake twice.
I am lucky to be alive, tonight. I bought the first round of drinks in the inn. I am looking forward to refocusing myself on my work. I think I will use Blue to sell some of the lower priority items that I have found myself. She could use a cut of the gold, and I do not have the time nor the space in my pack for the items. I need to make room for this shipment, and soon.
The night air never tasted so sweet. I had met with the Owl, Ferret, and Raven....and I was alive. Kept my tongue too, though if I were them I still would have made me remove it. Though I appreciate the mercy. It is...uncharacteristic in this line of work.