The dreams still come, but now i know to keep them secret. I will write them here and tell no one of them again just as i have told no one of the visits Emelle has made. Tabitha, I love her so much... and i will do what i have to to make her happy. Inari, I just have to accept things are as they are and wait to see who is right, This also means i have to accept the woman... Rose. Perhaps i was stupid when i turned down the offer of help to expose the threat i see. Inari said she is not my reward. I will respect that, and will not bother her about things again. Nemien offered to listen to me again, but i worry a little about that after what happened with Tabitha and her hair.
Oddly I miss Sedrik, I miss the ability to just speak freely, and hear a honest turn on what i said.
I am starting to hear Emelle more now. I know she is dead, but i hear her softly whispering. It comforting to hear her voice. I know Inari would freak knowing i am hearing her, Inari would worry that the voice was something bad trying to lure me to darkness. She would be wrong, I know its Emelle.