A single candle flickers in the small room, casting a hulking and monstrous shadow on the wall, a twitching creature of unnatural form. Yet it springs from a young woman, hunched over a table bearing nothing but ink, quill, and a small leather-bound book. The woman's hand moves steadily across the page, unceasing, as though the words she writes are already engraved upon her mind, and she needs only to copy them down. The words transfer themselves neatly to the page, small and legible, almost a scribe's hand.
Nine long months have I fought this. My Lady taught that keeping a journal was dangerous for those such as we, who deal in secrets and half-truths. Unwise. But also irresistible. Perhaps it is the opportunity to tell the full truth? But that I shall not do. I must assume these words will at some point be read by someone other than myself. You. You are my enemy, and I will lie to you, trick you, bore you, do everything within my power to deceive you. And just when you are ready to throw me away, I shall reveal some small truth. I will draw you back to me.
So. Nine months since the Mists stole me from my home. The moment becomes difficult to remember. Perhaps I shall not bother. Simpler to focus on what is.
I have done well under my new Lady. I will call her that here, at least. A small act of rebellion upon my part? I do not know. What I do know is that she is more flawed than my first lady. She does not see the deeper meanings, or perhaps she simply does not reveal them. Still, she is driven, and she holds her beliefs strongly. There is much I shall learn from her. And in time, perhaps I may teach her as well.
I have continued my mental and physical disciplines here, though it is more difficult without an instructor. I keep to the basic advice of my first Lady: All things may be thought of as tools. The task of one who seeks perfection, then, is to improve the tools given to her. It sounds much simpler than it is, and often I am frustrated as I seek to understand the mysteries of my own flesh and blood. For inspiration, I turn to the world around me. I shall record here the disciplines and training methods I have devised, that I may one day pass them on to my own students.