Finding light in the darkness - Falon's story

[Falon1228/myplaything]

She sits in the darkness the only thing she can see is the body on the floor.  Her body shaking as her mind tries to figure out what to do next.  She knows that she has to run, she knows they will come for her.  They will never understand, never see her side.  She grabs a few of her belongings and run out the door.  She heads for the woods.  She runs as far as she can before she stops, her lungs burning as she tries to catch her breath.  She looks down at herself, her stomach sours as she sees she is covered in his blood.

[Falon1228/myplaything]

She walks around and gathers some branches, makes a small campfire.  She looks around then slowly she starts to change out of the blood soaked dress.  She throws the blood soaked dress on the fire and gags slightly at the smell as the dress begins to burn. She hears the sound of water, she stumbles over to the small creek and begins washing the blood from her hands.  The darkness clings to the edges of the light from the campfire.  The voices speaking softly to her, telling her that she did the right thing. 

[Falon1228/myplaything]

Keep moving... she knows she has to keep moving.  Deeper into the dark woods easier to hide there, easier to stay lost.  She has walked so much in the days since she ran out of that house.  She walks at night less chance of being seen.  She looks about stopping a moment, the forest quiet.  Then she sees it, mist gathering around her.  She looks forward and thinks she sees someone standing there watching her.  Closer the mists come, suddenly she feels a sharp pain then nothing as she falls unconscious to the ground.

[Falon1228/myplaything]

 (the following is a letter shoved into a small Green leather prayer book)

Little Brother,

 You came to me the other day, your news broke my heart.  Again i am losing all i hold dear... As if losing Vasten was not enough punishment.  You are leaving and i understand why but it does not help the pain i feel.  Ezra will i hope bring you back soon.  The darkness is so close now.  I hear and feel her every moment now.  I am afraid to rest, I fear i will not wake.  You were the one keeping us safe,  It was you that woke me from the darkness.  I watch Kaeyna  from the shadows, I miss her so much.  I will not bother her, burden her as i did you.  I hope that for once she gets the happiness you and i wished for her.  It is hard to walk away from my family but with you gone i fear there is no other choice.

 Tonight i leave to Visit Ana.  I worry so how my troubles effect her. 

 Falon

[Falon1228/myplaything]

Little Brother,

  The mask is crumbling, I have no where to hide anymore.  No safe room to lock myself in.  Getting so tired I know soon i will lose this fight and i will sleep, the darkness is all around me, her voice is my constant companion.  She tells me to sleep to embrace the darkness.  I feel weak, ready to surrender.  I wish you were here, I miss you so much.  Perhaps it is time to seek out Erik.  I just don't know anymore.

Falon

[Falon1228/myplaything]

*sitting at the open air cafe in Port small green book open before her*

I look into the sky seeing the soft lights of dawn, feeling the pulling start.  I hear her even now.

I woke in a room, He was standing before me collar in hand, sadness in his eyes. I knew what the sadness was, knew that i was the cause.  I could hear her words telling him that she wanted free.  I don't blame her the darkness is hell.  She asked him to do the one thing she thought would free her, she asked him to collar her.  Once the deal was made she agreed not to fight him and i felt myself come forward.  I told him to do it, to end the chaos... he blinked and looked at me. The hurt in his eyes burned my soul.  I closed my eyes and waited for the feeling of the cold metal.  I tries to stand still to not flinch, but my body betrayed me.  The cold metal encircled my neck, felt like i was dying my breath stopped.  Then the chaos stopped, the yelling in my head gone only a soft whisper. 

I wonder if this hurt him. He is hiding something from me, but i can not force him to trust in me.  My heart sank as i watched him walk away.   
The hour is coming, my time to sleep.  When i wake I will head for Ana.

[Falon1228/myplaything]

*scribbled writting on crumpled paper shoved in a book*

How did things get like this.... I am paying the price for my past.


 Loosing all that i care for.

We are his, he holds us in his hands.

 Our salvation now our curse.

 The darkness seeping its way back in.

[Falon1228/myplaything]

We have left our beautiful little Light Ana, It breaks our hearts to leave her again.

The collar feels heavy, our thoughts are heavy.  To pull ourselves out of the only safe place we know, scares us.

[Falon1228/myplaything]

I did not know the end would come this way... I ran into Stefania and my thoughts where confirmed.  I gave her a letter for him... the promise once made that i know now is no longer true.  I will not again try to find or bother him.

The Light is gone... Welcome the Darkness.

[Falon1228/myplaything]

We have placed our freedom in her hands.  Now we just have to wait and hope it was not in vain. 

We ran into Stefania again, She still insists that our brother was hurt , that he loves us still.  We know she is wrong, he has made no attempt to let us know he cares.  We are unwilling to allow this to go on why should we hold ourselves back and keep our part of the vow if he is not going to keep his part.  So we have made plans to move forward.  We will rid ourselves of this collar and rid ourselves this weak part that keeps holding us back.  We will be as we should be Free to do as we like, Free to live this life in the manner we see fit.