Who, what, where, why, when and how?
That is all my mind knows now.
Repeating like the metronome,
Fearing that which I do not know.
My thoughts are like a buzzing bee,
The pest in which I only see.
Why doesn’t he leave? Get out of my head!
I swallow this herb, and now he is dead.
Page, I cannot stand when children whine… “I want to go to Grandma’s mommy!” Well guess what? We’re not going to Grandma’s house! I cut her up into little pieces and I’m going to use them for confetti at your birthday bash… There is nothing more that I hate than a whining pest. When they piss and moan in that high pitched voice it makes me want to kill them, their mother, everyone around me and myself. Children are a festering disease.
I had a dream last night, I buried myself alive. It was wonderful… I was in a coffin… it was so dark, so quiet, still like an untouched glass of water… life could not get in, but slowly every last breath of existence was coming out. It was an orgasm of death, so very splendid… when all of the air was gone, I could feel my lungs collapsing, seeking oh so very hard to succor on the essence of life, but all they received was the miracle of death….
I tried to explain to a naive Elven girl named Tat-something-something what love was after a brief discussion about my rose. I should have told her the real truth about love. Love is a lie. “Oh let me give you these flowers so I can plant my face between your arse cheeks,” not truly “Oh here are some flowers because I care about you.” Honestly, who would spend coin on someone just to tell them “I care about you,” they do it so they can bathe in their fluids and bask in filth. I love myself. I LOVE myself. I don’t want to bury my face between my thighs; though I would if I could…I’m ready to die.
Everyone stands against something in Barovia. Be it a wall, a tree, a rock, a shrub, a tower, a boat, a goat, an ox, a mink, a fence, a building, a sign… perhaps they don’t want their souls sucked out from the back of their neck; I have news for them, they have no souls, they are my children and I am the keeper of their souls. When I see someone standing up against a building I simply think to myself, “I own you, you are my slave and I want to violate you.” I can stand up against anything I want though, I created AO.
People should be enlightened by looking at the world through my eyes. I pity those who don’t have the abilities that I possess. For instance, I can feel the grass growing… I can convince people to do things they don’t want to do. Here you go miss! Take this herb right here, it will make all your troubles go away, yes indeed, yes indeed! She dies and I do what I want with her rotting carcass; delightful, isn’t it?
Sing me a song bard! Sing me a song bard! Sing me a song birdie… blah… when are they coming?! When are the mockers of life coming!? Who are they? I can’t sleep, for I may miss them.