Winter time. The worst time of the year i believe, perhaps it is because coldness and snow...i didnt have those things back at Athasian.
I do not feel the cold because of my amulet, it wouldnt matter if i run naked...foolish thinking of me...
Thinking..nowdays Sable has been only in my mind, why i cannot forget her..as she wished..i just cant, sorry Sable..its love i believe, this must be love?
Eldur has been troubled by Joey, but now they seem fine...i dont feel anything for Joey, strange..not even hatred when she first smacked me and then almost punched my teeth in my mouth..quite hard hit it was, but i swear if she hurts Eldur i will kill her and burn her as a witch..
There is..it feels like there would be nothing for me in this place, what i could achieve..?
It feels like a challenge..to get out of this place and live a normal life..whit Sable, yes that is what i wish.
I still feel i have a lot to learn..but Nara'ia wont teach me, she believes she have no right to teach me just because she made mistakes, it doesnt really matter...we all make mistakes and regret them later, swim in our own sea of pity..sounds foolish enough for me.
No, i must be strong! Who else would be strong for me...i dont know if i can trust even in myself, the madness..it sounds so wonderful right now..to fall in the sea of madness and forget everything, but no. This is the challenge i was given and i will face it rightly to my end..and maybe win.