" Test me but please do it in a fair way..."Fortunately or unfortunately to say that at some point of my life I had to join a faction of my order, the one that was working in the Waterdeep city metropolis to gain some relevance as deity and representation in the realm. To what they chose the best Knights to do the work and to what I was included somehow in that mission.
Contrary to what I was used to, the hierarchy of that faction was clearly defined and somehow already implemented. The hierarchy was composed by a team leader, who would report to my new leader. We had our problem solver team but later I came to understand that those were just mere tools, used to answer to the High Council of the Order’s will.
At my adult age I was already involved in a very lobby like, non lucrative organization, that was surviving through our work and of course the healers support, that was the most relevant one to the costumer’s perception.
Some places among the organization were secure by people of old friendships, I didn’t fall in my sub leader graces and that placed me in a very delicate situation inside the order.
We were five new members joining the previous team when we met, and the other five were already in the ground, my sub leader had recently achieved that title so she was passing through a test and adaptation phase, like us.
In a very clumsy way the older team members tried to reveal their disappointment through the chosen sub leader, and closed their doors to the person in question, leaving us new member to support her. Since they had a stronger compromise with that faction, they could act together and oppose to her decisions better than us.
Well according to my values, to my nature I couldn’t take advantage of that fragile situation and create a strong connection with my sub leader, to criticize or blame the others work methods, like some of the new members did to assure their places inside that team. So the competition became heavier, and through my point of view, it turned into a very sick way of competition, due to the lack of places and the value that this order was offering for each.
In my understanding I really never met her and today I do not blame myself because of it, it happened to both. Due to the circumstances we weren’t able to know each other much, to the point of trust. As I was one of the youngest members and not experienced in this type of order and competition ways, I was an easy target if not the easiest.
Also she was in a very delicate situation and all allies she could gain would be good to stabilize and assure the objectives for this team.
I never met such order, with such important mission, with so many organizational problems, due to schedules, according to the tasks complexity, distribution and the monetary value applied to each. We were all under different circumstances being tested, but we knew all previously that some had already a purpose, that later came to reveal itself.
The situations I was placed to test were irrelevant to me, due to my past; however some of my team mates did things that I could not agree with.
The goal of this team was to gather the most beautifully and charismatic Knights to represent the whole deity in that city. Of course the appearance would become the top of all priorities, more than the doctrine. The subject you were dealing couldn’t be the most important but you would need to have a graceful and assertive position dealing with each different situation.
During that time my sub leader came to understand some of my flaws and tried to use them to manipulate my actions through the judgments about each of them, I let myself fall into such stupid game and fall into a depressive state, that later I came to understand to be useless to me or to my work.
As I could realize with time, she was not the one leading, but she let herself be lead by some of the team members with their own purpose already.
For me the funniest situation was when they chose me to represent the order in the strongest religious order inside Waterdeep.
And she requested me, previously, to change all in me, my hair cut, my way of dressing and also my posture and language. How could I? I didn’t have a family to offer me such monetary support. Or even if the order wasn’t available to offer me that monetary support, I was certainly falling into one unsuccessful situation.
From that point I understood that moral harassment was starting to be installed in the team and with some relevance in each one, through in different ways.
Reviewed by Unholy_Emissary
