First let me mimmic all of the positive points- theres so much about the servers systems I love. Especially the way you jiggered the armors so I can get 6/3 AC in banded, that just opens up a whole slew of options rather then "Fullplate, Chainshirt, Studded Leather or Padded".
Lately I havn't played much, and i'm on extended hiatus/retirement/wtf? from the DM team. I find it hard to be interested lately, though I am trying to advance plotlines with a character or two, because it all feels so. . . limited. All you can do is sit around the inn or the outskirts, talk to people, get involved with the latest transient faction event (which isn't bad mind you), or go out and kill some creatures for small capital gains over and over. Or you can power craft.
I feel . . . encased. And heavens know i've tried. I've written IC letters to the Burgomaster and sent them along to DM's, trying to get permission to run an inteirly player run fair outside the town. I've tried to organize multiple factions together to take part in events, but with no replies or no support it all falls apart. I'm not blaming the DM team. I've been a DM, I know you can't do every little thing.
Here's an interesting bit. I wrote a letter to the burgomaster asking to start a school for the priveledge in Vallaki. To my amazement I got a response, and my PC got to meet with the Burgo. After discussing it, I created a -REAL- economics and business plan charting profits, costs, and feasible pay off time for startups over a period of 10 years, as well as making allowances for book rentals and purchaes (I didn't get into housing though). I sent it to said DM. It got shut down in DEV because they weren't sure it fit the setting, or would benefit a wide enough range of players for RP purposes. All reasonable concerns, I don;t blame the Dev's.
Nothing happens in Barovia, ever. There aren't foreign invasions (Barring that one event that a limtied number of people could take part in), there aren't political shakeups, the story never advances or fluctuates despite the fact the PNP modules were all designed from the start to take the PC's along a road to eventually confront the Darklord. Naturally the basis of it being a persistant world forgoes this, but throw in the fact it's supposed to be a gothic horror server and you have a problem- gothic horror is dependent on prose and story, on plot and advancement- too much prolongement and the horror becomes blaise. The creatures of the night are supposed to inspire fear and terror, but when confornted without the framework of a story they're just monsters to mash- not necessarily a bad thing but it fails the setting.
I feel bored, uninspired, and uncaring. I log in, I see nothing interesting to do or interact with, I log out. Why stay? So I can stay on and kill some monsters and make a few hundred gold and an amulet of will? It's not impossible to make it good dungeoning, it just requires extreme repitition. Normally I wouldn't care about dungeoning, but hanging around and RPing is no fun either- when I was new it was exciting. I thought, "Yeah, i'll be the good guy to make it work. I'll learn all there is to learn, i'll challenge Strahd himself, i'll tell him what he needs to hear without judging him and give him a chance to be righteous again. I'll beat the Darkpowers themselves with amazing grace". And I almost did- I road that pony all the way to Strahd and I told him to his face he needed to let Tatyanna go because it perpetuated a cycle of misery, and that he was being controled and toyed with by forces beyond his comprehension. Then I got executed. For a while, I was even lead to believe my characters soul was doomed to wander the mists for all eternity with no afterlife awaiting it. It's never quite matched since then- i've been here long enough, I've been on all sides of the fences and I know ultimatly nothing I or anyone else does will matter.
I blame me.
Ultimatly the fault lies with me I guess. I've been here almost two years, I think. Maybe i've outgrown, maybe i've changed. Maybe I need to go. My heart yearns for things we can't have- glory, grandeur, a sense of importance to your actions and your character. A world that breaths, and sometimes it kicks you in the teeth and sometimes it raises you up. I don't feel anything compelling or adventurous from Ravenloft anymore.
But I don't want to sit here and badmouth it anymore. Thats not cool. It's no ones fault I feel the ways I do but myself. These aren't problems you can actually fix. Prisoners of the Mist is what it is, and it won't change- It's taken on it's own life, and we are just the stewards of the construct now. In any case it would be wrong to alter what so many people have worked so hard for in such a fundamental way, for one person, or a few people. I'm rambling, it's late, I hardly know what i'm saying but I wanted to get it out.
Peace, we have an awesome server.