[A journal is written with modest, short entries on each page]
My name is Sandor Kosvozic.
The year is 725. I am born on a farm outside of Berez on a day when the snows fell heavy. I have two loving parents, a sister, and two brothers. The fourteen years that follow are happy enough.
The year is 740. A recruiter comes to Berez, saying that the Duke of Gundarak had been assassinated, that his holdings were in turmoil, and his lands needed liberated from the despotic governors he had installed. My two brothers and I accept his payment of forty wolf fangs, with the promise of honor for our family, and Count and county.
The year is 740. I am a boy imagining himself a man, and am not prepared for these nine months. I am among the pikemen that build the vanguard during the siege of Zeidenburg. When the order comes to set fire to the thatch roofs of the farms and the slums, mine is one of the hands casting torches.
The year is 741. I return home. I help my father bury the bones of my two brothers beneath the willow on the edge of the pond where our livestock drink.
The year is 742. I cannot sleep at my home anymore. The screams of soldier and peasant alike flood my dreams, and memories of my brothers keep me from peaceful sleep. The image of the slums of Zeidenburg burning in the dead of night haunt me. I leave to head East to distance myself from what I've done, and the displaced people who have come to Berez to live.
The year is 744. I am married. My wife is of the number of refugees that fled from the West who no longer have homes. I hide my role in the conquest from her. My love for her is so great that I knew this secret would break her heart.
The year is 745. I have a son. I work as a carpenter's apprentice in a shop outside of Vallaki. My dreams are still dark, and the secret I keep from my wife burns into me like a hot iron. Each day I look at them, and imagine a boy imagining himself a man might come and take them from this world, for the sake of a purse of wolf fangs, and glory for Count and county.
The year is 748. I have a second son. I have learned the trade well, and have made a good living as a wainwright . I have my own shop. The love for my family and my job drown out my past sins.
The year is 749. A man comes to the shop who stood at my shoulder in the siege of Zeidenberg. He starts to reminisce of the siege and his spoils, and lays my secret bare within earshot of my wife who has brought me my midday meal.
The year is 749. My wife fights with me bitterly, and the disgust in her eyes and on her face becomes too much for me to look at her anymore. I try apologize to her, and to explain to her, but she will not listen.
The year is 749. My wife leaves, taking our children. I too leave. I can't bear the disgrace from my neighbors. I head north to Krezk.
The year is 751. I have burned through my savings and turned to drinking. I am a beggar in the streets of Krezk. A man in a faded red robe picks me up out of the gutter, and offers me a meal.
The year is 756. I have given my sins to the Morninglord, and he has taken them from me. The clergy here has been kind, but I long for the family that has left me, and set out on the road to Zeidenburg where she may have returned. I pray she might forgive me as I have forgiven myself, and the Morninglord has forgiven me.
The year is 759. I help to spread the Morninglord's message of hope to the downtrodden and displaced of Zeidenburg. I have made friends, but have yet to find my family in my travels between here, Teufeldor, and Berez.
The year is 772. My travels have brought me back to Vallaki.
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