Yes Kaine, everything you do and any word you utter is bad and wrong at all times!
You cannot *possibly* do anything right! To ever conclude otherwise would be sheer lunacy.
This is the thing people would often express to me in no uncertain terms seemingly although among the more polite folk we would associate with it would tend to be danced around more than directly stated.
Am I mad for this? Are other people mad for denying it?
I'm not a philosopher.
Why do I choose to cling to hope in spite of things oftentimes by all accounts on the surface appearing quite hopeless? Well, perhaps it is a stubborn defiance of the circumstances which we are subjected to. The "powers" that be seem rather cruel and not entirely necessarily even deserving of respect. Fear and respect are two very different things except when you are an idiot peasant or a despotic tyrant!
Just keep a low profile Kaine. Try not to arouse more suspicion. Wait out the term of your banishment like a good little subject although it's clear from the way we are treated authorities do not think we are the type of good which they would prefer!
People like me we are not downtrodden enough. Our refusal to be utterly and completely broken bothers those who would assume our complete subjugation. Perhaps these authorities know that though I obey their laws outwardly I spit in the eye of anyone who would assume to be in complete control of me. That is a dangerous thought for an outlander to have. My my... If it ever spread to the locals they might... Oh I don't know, the Garda could demand better wages, firstly.
I'm not an anarchist but on the surface such lines of reasoning make authority figures think things like "He will propose a tax revolt and that causes a pickle for me."
Nono, if anything I am a proponent of a civil society where people try to conduct regular commerce.
Had the Morninglord decided it was not just to save young Martyn Pelkar from the coven of vampires standing him down back in I think it was either 425 or 475 BC, there would be no foundation for the cult of the Morninglord. Certainly there are some who would argue jeopardizing his own safety to save a young boy whom he did not even know was unwise. I don't know it for certain but I think probably our Morninglord knew the risks and still felt like fighting "the good fight" against those foul undead anyway regardless.