"Let's go home, Rika."
A whisper in the darkness, forehead touched to forehead.
The amount I trusted that boy is unbelievable. We fought.
He is changing. Not for the better. I don't know what to do,
or how to stop it, make him see reason. I knocked him out,
and by the time he came to, I was already at the gate. I
was furious. Hurt. Upset. Fighting back tears. Sometimes
I wish I wasn't such a child. I said-
"We are fighters, brother. Not murderers."
He tried to come after me but I was already gone, I knew
he'd be looking for me inside one of the inns and as I eventually
made it back to Vallaki, beaten and badly wounded, I just crumpled
beside a large boulder and curled up to sleep. Images of him
performing the deed flashed in my head. I felt sick. My injuries
weren't helping.
From the wall I vaguely heard the warnings to get away, but
I remained where I was. I knew if he came near me now
they would see him. If they didn't shoot me first. It was a
risky gamble, but it was definite protection.
"Shoot anything that comes towards her.
Don't let me catch you out again."
As soon as I knew I was safe, at least for one night, I managed
to fall asleep where I was. I don't know how, I must have been
exhausted. I am not surprised. I am afraid for you, brother. Afraid
for what you are becoming. Afraid that I might not like you anymore.
Still, my lips are sealed even though my heart screams for release.
This is not who we are..